If you ever ask me about your mother
I’m not really sure what I can tell you.
Maybe the sound of her voice.
Or the way she tilted her head when she smiled.
I have some letters to show you.
That might be it.
Also you look just like her.
Your father can tell you about the pain.
About it coming in waves and her
bobbing on the surface, rising and falling
and still rising again. A thing adrift on an endless sea.
He can tell you about the late nights
and the pills lined up like soldiers,
and about how in the end,
he just wanted it to be over
even if over was death
and then it was,
and he went home
and you were only two
on the floor, wide eyed
already downy haired and motherless.
21 hours ago