There are others who have died,
and I realize that even when I talk to myself
-- about you.
Or when someone says your name,
which sounds strange coming out of their mouth.
Like a foreign word.
Because I’m used to it only being spoken
by the voice I use in my head.
Which is different from the voice I use out loud.
Even when loved ones form the syllables that
make up the word that I called you, I am taken aback to hear it.
In the dream I had last night
the planets came crashing to earth.
They broke free with a sharp twang
from the wire strings that held them
suspended in the sky
and they smashed down around us,
like boulders left by a glacier.
And the dark night sky turned pink and purple
like a bruise.
A smear against the stars.
And I cowered in fear.
No one believed me. They kept staring at their TV.
They said it was just a television show.
But it wasn’t.
It was real death.
It was a tidalwave of frozen tears.
It was her drowning.
It was a god, reborn, pink and weaning
lonely up in all that blackness
and he was never going to look down at us.
And we were never going to look up at him.
20 hours ago