There are others who have died,
and I realize that even when I talk to myself
-- about you.
Or when someone says your name,
which sounds strange coming out of their mouth.
Like a foreign word.
Because I’m used to it only being spoken
by the voice I use in my head.
Which is different from the voice I use out loud.
Even when loved ones form the syllables that
make up the word that I called you, I am taken aback to hear it.
In the dream I had last night
the planets came crashing to earth.
They broke free with a sharp twang
from the wire strings that held them
suspended in the sky
and they smashed down around us,
like boulders left by a glacier.
And the dark night sky turned pink and purple
like a bruise.
A smear against the stars.
And I cowered in fear.
No one believed me. They kept staring at their TV.
They said it was just a television show.
But it wasn’t.
It was real death.
It was a tidalwave of frozen tears.
It was her drowning.
It was a god, reborn, pink and weaning
lonely up in all that blackness
and he was never going to look down at us.
And we were never going to look up at him.
9 hours ago